At the beginning of this month I felt so ridiculously bogged down by everything.
Too much to do and not enough time. And the inability to get a grip on the situation — and manage my time effectively — was addling my brain and making me feel a bit miserable.
Amazingly my lovely friend Leigh — who writes the award winning blog Headspace Perspective — is also a qualified life coach and had just set up a new business called Bright Mind Spirit. She’d offered a handful of bloggers an hour long session each and I was lucky enough to be picked.
She told me that coaching can often show us that we have the answers to our own problems.
‘Stepping out of our everyday maelstrom will help us to see what’s what.’
It couldn’t have come at a better time.
We discussed so many things and at the end of the session my head felt much clearer.
It was like mentally trying to unravel a knotted and tangled ball of string. Initially, I had no idea where to even start.
But throughout the session, everything started to become a little clearer and I could see that making small changes would make the world of difference to my work/life balance.
I made promises to be a little kinder to myself — cut myself some slack — and take time-out of my working week to occasionally s.t.o.p.
Take a walk.
Practice my calligraphy.
Read a book.
Paint a picture.
So, as May has tumbled on, I have done exactly that.
My workload hasn’t lessened but I’ve certainly felt as though I have a better handle on everything. Putting work aside for half an hour, a couple of times a week, has given me a little more clarity.
Given me time to breathe and take stock.
And my styling the seasons post this month is sort of a bi-product of that.
I picked some Forget-Me-Nots a few days ago — put them in a little bottle of water and popped them on a shelf.
They’re so pretty. Papery thin; sky blue and lilac petals. Some of them tinged with blush pink or mauve. A golden eye in the centre of each flower, almost like a little star.
I decided to paint them.
I’ll never be a good painter but I love the process. So nice to focus your mind and concentrate on the brush strokes. Lovely to watch how the paint merges with the water and settles into the paper.
It’s a great way of pushing out unwanted thoughts and giving your mind a little breather.
And as I sat there, concentrating on the little flowers and their spindly stems, I thought about the last few weeks.
I remembered that this month marks the first anniversary of my nana’s death. And in just four day’s time, it will be the fifth anniversary of my lovely grandad’s passing.
And that same date marks a full twenty years — to the day — that my beautiful boy and I got together.
And it struck me that it’s the month of May — which was my Nana’s middle name — and I’m painting Forget-Me-Nots and thinking about them.
Such lovely symmetry.
Many thanks to lovely Leigh for giving up an hour of her time and, in doing so, giving me back my perspective. If you feel as though you could do with a little bit of help finding your focus, pop along to Bright Mind Spirit and have a chat with her. I highly recommend it.